Black Widow's Journal
   
Fri 02 Oct 09 10:10 am
  is missing the feel of rubber  
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Fri 19 Jun 09 11:06 pm
  so just wanted to let you all know that I'm actually back up in Toronto nowadays and have been focusing on training to be a hairstylist for pretty much the better part of the last 2 years. Modeling has been put waaaaaaayyyy back on the backburner since moving back up from LA and at present I'm just about finished the hair cutting schooling and will be setting up in a salon soon. So for yet another few months, as I get settled into the new career, I'm not going to have anything uber exciting to add up here but looking forward to getting back into the shooting side of things both in front of the lens and on the otherside in the styling context sooner than later. In general though I need to get back in touch with all my toronto peeps! how many of you are still on this thing?

bah...I'll just use the new phangled facebook thingy instead !)
 
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fml   
Wed 17 Jun 09 9:06 pm
 
mood: blah
it's been so long
it's been too long

itchy typing fingers have been falling short of a satisfying scratch for a very long time
and by looking back at the last post, it's been a very very very long time indeed

damn it
damn it all
 
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*TAP TAP TAP*   
Wed 17 Jun 09 9:06 pm
  is this thing still on?!?  
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please help!   
Thu 14 Feb 08 1:02 am
 
mood: astounded
I've been away from livejournal for a while, I have come back on to keep up with a very disturbing situation that is happening to a very undeserving person. My friend [info]_yungfuktoi_'s partner has been unjustly imprisoned in Dubai for carrying melatonin on him when entering the country. He is lookng at possibly 4 years in prison for an over the counter drug that can be purchased anywhere in Dubai. More info anf updates can be found on her lj, here's the initial rundown:

URGENT SITUATION please read and pass along

On Saturday, my best friend and partner, Cat Le-huy (aka Diz) was arrested at Dubai Airport for having melatonin on his person, an over-the-counter jet lag aid. They stripped him, submitted him to urine testing, forced him to sign documents in Arabic, which he didn't understand. During the searched the literally scraped the bottom of his bag for fragments of dirt which
they are now alleging is 'hashish'.

He now faces four years in Dubai prison for 'drug smuggling'.

He is totally innocent of all charges, but in Dubai there is no 'due process'. We need your help to collect as many signatures as possible, and if there is anything you feel you can do to help us
secure his release we would be so grateful.

Petition
Full story
On Coilhouse
On boingboing
On Warren Ellis
BBC
The
Evening Standard

The Register
The Daily Record
Facebook1
Facebook2
BBC World Service interview with both me and Fair Trials International (38 minutes in)
Complete list of publications here

Regular updates on his situation will be posted on my
Livejournal


Please feel free to pass this on to anyone you know, and I'm both overwhelmed and humbled by the support we've been given. Thank you so
much.

- Mildred
 
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death becomes us   
Sat 13 Oct 07 4:10 pm
 
mood: pensive
I've smelt death today...in fact I got to stare intently at it for a few moments. They say the smell of a dead body is like nothing else, but strangely the smell is familiar, though I can't place it.

An older man in the apartment complex here passed away what must have been several days ago. Passed away in a chair right next to his window which happens to be next to the laundry room. Someone doing their laundry caught the smell, realized it was from the apartment and called in the police. I was lucky enough to just happen to come down the stairs when they pulled out the window screen and released a strong waft of the smell and the flies that had accumulated. Sure enough you could see the poor man leaned over in his chair right by the window, odd blotches on his face from the blood pooling, coagulating, doing whatever it is that is does in a several day old corpse.

He looked peaceful enough, like he had gone in his sleep or quickly while he had been watching tv. Long gone and sitting there waiting for the moment when another human cared enough to look and find his condition. No one around the building really knew him or noticed him coming or going daily. Had it not been for the smell, everyone would have continued milling about around him, going on with their living lives. For some, solitude is an ultimately personal choice and most people assume that to be a hermit you must get out of urban centers and away from other humans. Just goes to show how utterly alone a person can become amongst a bustling center and just how uncaring and desensitized to others the modern man has become in this hustle and bustle.
 
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what's mine is mine and no one elses!   
Fri 12 Oct 07 6:10 pm
 

in principle, I'm all for the concept of a global economy. I agree with the premise of the north american union and see it as just a step towards the global goal. Hearing this gets me very excited, reading the comments that go along with this video makes me very sad. Selfish hoarding greed is being trumped as nationalism and ethnocentric racism is being paraded as patriotism. How sad that people can't see that giving up a little of their personal excess could make such a HUGE difference to people who live in such unimaginable hardship as they do in parts of mexico. It seems no one on the comment board was ever taught how to share....
 
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so few and far between   
Thu 11 Oct 07 1:10 pm
  it's been a while....



co-lab-orators
Photo: [info]nadyalev
Fashion: [info]_yungfuktoi_
 
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gorgeous   
Thu 11 Oct 07 11:10 am
  I've been excitedly anticipating the launch of http://www.coilhouse.net/ since I first heard about it and now they're finally live. Prodcued by some of the most entertaining and aesthetic minds I know, I'm looking forward to seeing each month what they scour the web and bring forth. Now I just have to wait a little longer to get my grubby little paws on the glossy paper version....

Check it out!

 
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push on through   
Tue 11 Sep 07 12:09 pm
 
mood: accomplished
I'm sore as hell today from too much crow and scorpion....and in a few hours I'm going to go to my first dance class in years and make the lower half of my body hurt too....YAY for masochism
 
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god bless hollywood   
Fri 17 Aug 07 4:08 pm
 
mood: perplexed
watching the local news this afternoon, I catch a story about a homeless woman being sexually assaulted and then beaten by a homeless man as the news reporter puts it. The report goes on and apparently the woman managed to dial her cell phone while being attacked and gest hold of her ex-boyfriend who then comes to the scene and saves her by attacking her attacker with a knife.

now lets see who also sees the absurdity in that situation with me.....
 
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742339   
Mon 13 Aug 07 10:08 am
 
mood: devastated
everyone comes into our lives for a shorter period of time than the sum of our individual existence, given that we live a normal life span. It's a rare
exception that someone was there from birth and is with you until death so it is inevitable that loss touches us all at some point. It's just made even more difficult to find the peace of inevitability and necessity when a friend is torn from your life violently and suffers.

my puppy Shadey of 15 years passed away today...she fell into my parents pool when let out to do her business. Unfortunately with no supervision, she went under the day cover and drowned.

she was old, she had lived a long life etc etc etc

but what a slap in the face to have made it that long into her life and then have it snuffed out with panic and suffering and the sensation of drowning....

I'm so sorry puppy....I should have been there to save you....

 
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anyone know...   
Sat 28 Jul 07 10:07 am
  where's a great place to get a haircut in hollywood?  
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bring it on!!   
Wed 04 Jul 07 2:07 am
  I am now relocated to Hollywood

indefinitely

weehaw!
 
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why is arnold at my grocery store!?!?   
Tue 29 May 07 8:05 pm
 
mood: creeped out
so I drive over to my usual local dominion grocery store to pick myself up stuff for dinner. I pull into the lot and it's swarming with guys in suits and cops and just people in general dressed like they should be at a wedding reception or working for the CIA, not hanging out at a grocery store. I just kinda wrote it off as a possible corporate grocery event or something. I walk in and am instantly greeted by happy happy grocery staff and booths overflowing with tasty samples of this and that. I look around and the produce department is stacked as high as is possible in symmetrical pyrimads of luscious goodness complete with a pile of ripe shiny red cherries that were just beckoning to me to dive in! I weave my way amongst the suits who are all standing around looking anxiously towards the entrance. I was getting more and more creeped out in that willy wonka's chocolate factory/stepford wife kinda way. All the shelves are perfectly faced forward and the second something is picked off a shelf a staff member has run over and filled in the gap. i make my way to the exceptionally helpful cashier and stack up my food and the usual checkout chat ensues. When I finally get around to asking what's with everyone and can I get some of what this whole store has been smoking, the cashier tells me "the governator is coming" in that stereotypical austrian accent.

WTF? why the hell is Arnold Schwarzenegger coming to a grocery store?

at this point I glance out the store windows and notice the throng of press that's now arriving, I hear some other staff member saying something about how he was supposed to be here half an hour ago and I grab my goods and bolt before I'm trampled by a media stampede along with my avocados and roasted chicken.

I'm going to go back to finally roll around in those plump juicy cherries tomorrow when the prozac and fakeness wears off of everyone there.
 
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Mon 21 May 07 4:05 pm
   
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Wed 16 May 07 8:05 pm
  this strikes me as a perfect metaphor for societies over the ages.....

http://www.yourdailymedia.com/media/1179178082/Time_Lapse_Painting
 
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who wants candy?   
Wed 16 May 07 4:05 pm
 


I'm heading back to the podium for this fabulous event! Come out and enjoy one hell of a SWEET time and be the first to enjoy the inception of my evil twin White Widow >:)
 
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new gadgets   
Mon 14 May 07 6:05 pm
  awesome! I have a credit card that accumulates points which I sort of forgot about....I went in to check on the point balance as I decided to close down the account and lo and behold I had enough points to get myself a gift card for $200 to futureshop!

so I've gotten myself a sweet little pocket sized digital camera that I can take out in the eves to capture my exploits in both image and video format without having to fiddle with the bulky rebel. Weeeee.

http://www.futureshop.ca/catalog/prodDetail.asp?sku_id=0665000FS10085480&logon=L&langid=EN
 
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Thu 26 Apr 07 10:04 pm
 
mood: amused
robot chicken is hilarious!
 
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